Julie's Love Letter

New level

2011-11-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

Can anyone enlighten me please?
Tell me, tell me; Am I the only person who cannot understand the Indian accent?
It was really exhausting talking to the Indian lady just now.

My patience has reached a new limit; from 70% to 30% now.
It's so annoying settling stuff like these. And my mom has just gotten me to call Singtel to check out about her handphone bills.

I can go crazy listening to the automated phone operators.
Please spare me from all these! I'm already doing a lot of phone calls like that at work.
I need rest! D:

2011-06-14T01:18:00.000+08:00

Perhaps this isn't the right job for me.
Wait.

Perhaps? I should say.... This, in actual fact, isn't the right job for me.
I've been feeling this way since a year ago.
It's finally 1 year.

Waiting for the bonuses before the actual escape!

2011-04-28T00:35:00.000+08:00

I wish I could be more hardworking for 'Living'.
Leading a life with purposes and meaning.

I have no idea where I'm heading.
Days and months go by very swiftly.

I'm young, but soon I'll grow old and get my energy depleted.
I need to get rid of these imperfections to fit myself comfortably into this puzzle.

2011-03-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

Don't know how to describe this sense of insecurity inside me.

2011-03-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

The world will never stop spinning just because of you.
So move on, move on.
Wherever you are, whatever you do, just give it your best shot.
I realised that whining makes me feel miserable and it sucks all my time and energy.
+++ Laugh more, be interested and stay positive always +++

2011-02-24T00:35:00.000+08:00

Imagined my future, and 'working in the office' is not inside the picture.

2011-02-20T12:45:00.002+08:00

Dreams make us alive.

2011-02-13T23:57:00.001+08:00

I love my family

2011-02-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

女孩子本来就是应该每天每天都美美的

Love this CNY!

2011-02-06T12:10:00.000+08:00

CNY has been great because of the super long weekend and last but most importantly, I get to meet up with most of my favourite people in the world. Looking at the photos alone makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Awwww! :)

2011-01-27T23:39:00.003+08:00

Just enjoy each and every different stage of life. Juz enjoy...

2011-01-14T00:38:00.000+08:00

Confidence is more important than just important.

2011-01-12T00:41:00.001+08:00

New year resolution 1: Quit saying 'wahlao'

2011-01-09T21:25:00.001+08:00

Glad that I've a storage box for the sweet gifts from family and friends.. Reminds me that life was great, and it will get even better. Just stay positive. Happiness can be a choice.

2011-01-08T12:44:00.000+08:00

What is wrong with me again?
Happy self, come back.. Quick, please.

2011-01-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

Restart Restart Restart Restart Restart Restart Restart Restart! Urgg how long more does this have to repeat before everything becomes less like a dream??? This is so tiring!!! Restart Restart restart! Restart and never ever restart again!!

2011-01-06T21:25:00.002+08:00

Don't be a puppet of love.

2010-12-08T00:26:00.001+08:00

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youth

2010-11-22T01:55:00.000+08:00

Hi Julie

life's been good. Can you believe it? I'm doing HR now but there's a huge part of me wanting to try Marketing. I've been receiving different opinions from friends and family whenever I tell them about the urge inside me... The urge to leave HR for a Marketing job.

Most encouraged me to go and not waste my time anymore.

A few others told me that it's always such a case whereby the grass over at the other side looks greener... and once I'm there, I'd realize it doesn't look like it is in my dream.

But I'd still like to give it a try... Maybe it's gonna work for me, or maybe not.

How would I know till I've really experienced it?

I want no regrets.

All Over the World

2010-11-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

Omg I wanna fly fly fly

MegaJump

2010-11-21T00:04:00.001+08:00

Everytime I play MegaJump, I refuse to give up if I do not get to the next level.

Each time after I fail, I try again... again, again, and again.. Only to feel satisfied after a record is broken.

Wouldn't it be awesome if I applied that kind of spirit to life? Hmmm.

Friendddd.

2010-11-18T00:00:00.001+08:00

What is it that happened?

I miss you man.

Fly

2010-11-13T17:38:00.000+08:00

Hello

2010-11-13T15:52:00.000+08:00

Favorite quote from my friend: "Do what you love and fuck the rest."

Be carefree.

Woooowah, I really love this photo!

Been traveling quite a lot this year and next year's gonna be crazy toooo.

Somehow plans are already going on for countdown trip, BKK trip, after-Sunway-Lagoon trip, and I am most excited about... the Japan trip with my girlfriends! :)

Life is great, but I've been a lucky lady who has been laughing too loud and cannot be bothered to put on a little makeup.

I SHOULD CHANGE.

Laugh like a lady and at least conceal those eye circles!

Maybe I should mix with girls who play barbie dolls.

I wish for more courage to pursue my dreams and think lesser.

BE CAREFREE.

Cough

2010-06-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

I swear to heaven and earth, sky and ground, moon and stars, sun and clouds.. that
I WILL STOP TAKING ANYTHING COLD!

The cough is driving me crazy because each time I breathe, I cough.
(It may be due to the jog just now too.)
Equivalent to 60 cough per minute if I breathe once every second.
Man, I can feel that my lungs are tired.. and most probably turning old and wrinkled rapidly with all the coughing.

Run Run!!

2010-06-05T00:10:00.003+08:00

Okay, now go.

2010-06-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

Maybe I should stop being stubborn and choosy.
Let's accept it and see how things go.

For the sake of posting

2010-06-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

I am so glad because I can finally tie my hair!
It shows that my hair is getting longer! ;)

Went to get a feel of the dummy D90 today.
If only I can have a feel of how the real thing works.. but no, not now.
Because I hate that creepy itch that comes along after playing.

Gotta consider more and do more research first before investing in it:
1. Got no flair for photography.. Will it be a waste if I get D90? (but I wanna learn, I wanna explore.)
2. I must learn not to splurge.
3. Is it a price-for-value camera?

Pfft.
Nowadays I feel like a complete freak whenever people look at me.
This. is. not. good. not. good.

somewhere

2010-05-26T17:44:00.001+08:00

"Emma was good for Henry and vice versa; as they often told others, they were too busy laughing together to have any time to argue."

- The Guardian, Nicholas Sparks

Couldn't things be as simple as this when two persons get together?

And.. I believe...

Somewhere I'll find someone who's going nowhere and we'll go there together.

blessed

2010-05-25T22:55:00.002+08:00

I am like a precious pearl only because my dad treats me like one. :)

I am missing a lot of people right now...

2010-05-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

Perhaps the short conversation with my mom today created too much impact on me.
My mom told me today that she is feeling faint, and when I asked her why, she told me she is old and is gonna get into the coffin soon.
I am scared, fucking scared. I'm shivering a little.

I feel so alone now, but I shouldn't be.
Because for the past few days, I've been spending time with family and friends.
My parents are sleeping and I am alone in my room.

I wish I had more time with my brother.
It has been really long since we had long conversations.

I want to stay over at my grandmother's house but I can't bear to leave my parents at home.

I want to read The Notebook.

I want to go to work not because I want to work but because I need money.

I need a hug; a hug to let me know that everything's okay and I'm not gonna be alone.

happy 19th

2010-05-23T01:43:00.001+08:00

Instead of me always being the one saying "弟来，抱一个"，my brother asked for "抱一个" today!

First time okay! Hehe.

Today is a special day. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER, LOVE YOU.

dreams

2010-05-20T13:34:00.000+08:00

Dear Julie,

I had a quiet dream last night.

There wasn't any verbal expressions, everyone communicated with their eyes and smiles.

There was a connection somehow.

It was so beautiful.

Everything looked so wonderful.. so protected.

Someone dropped something from his clenched fist into my hand.

I can't remember what it was, but that came by as a sweet surprise.

It all felt so natural, so peaceful.. like a piece of melody without sound.

If only it was real.

Part 1

2010-05-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

Hospitalization 2005.

Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul.

No need for stamps.

Dance sillily.

LTMCFM.

Blessed girl.

Clever.

Sweetest surprise.

Not the fish that swims.

X'mas 2004.

Of people I love.

Too bad.

Now now now,

I need a bigger treasure box.

Shopping at Ikea soon!

Life

2010-05-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

After coming to realization that June is about 15 days away, I was totally shocked.

And I told my friend, "How I wish we had 8 days in a week."

But then we all know.. it will always be a dream.

Instead of wishing for 8 days in a week, I should make the best out of the 7.

SX, spend time wisely.

Out of the box

2010-05-12T23:44:00.005+08:00

Don't stop, don't stop, don't stop.

No no, don't stop, don't stop.

Don't stop this feeling, don't stop.

I am feeling so crazy, so out of mind, so happy.

I like being crazy and laugh my lungs out.

2010-05-10T13:10:00.000+08:00

i.am.scared.

extremely.scared.

Mom

2010-05-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

So it's Mother's Day...

Because my brother and I did not have a lot of money left,

we decided to prepare this steamboat dinner for Mum instead of heading out for dinner.

Everything proudly prepared by me, my brother and his girlfriend! :D

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

I LOVE MY MOM.

and my Dad too! :D

Again and again.. and again.

2010-05-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

Stopped exercising for a week and I need to get back on track!

My face is looking like a mega fishball again.

For the next few days,

I have to...

run 4 kilometers,

walk 4 kilometers,

climb 30 flights of stairs,

do 4x20 sets of push ups

and

5x30 sets of squats

every consecutive day...

Until my friend comes.

Exercising makes me happier.

365thoughts

2010-05-08T16:04:00.000+08:00

I can’t promise to fix all your problems, but I can promise you won’t have to face them alone.

Sometimes, I feel more connected with strangers from across the world than I do with most of my friends in real life.

That’s what I’m afraid of… not being enough. Not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough

It’s okay to lose your pride over someone you love, don’t lose someone you love though over your pride.

We’re the type of best friends who burst out laughing from last year’s inside jokes.

Best Friends: they know how stupid you are and still choose to be seen with you in public.

A part of me wants an answer, but a part of me doesn’t want to know. A part of me wants to keep holding on, but a part of me wants to let you go.

Note to self: before you fall for someone, make sure they’re ready to catch you.

2010-05-08T15:39:00.003+08:00

2010-05-08T02:25:00.002+08:00

my learning journey begins here

2010-05-08T01:29:00.005+08:00

Delicious pegs for hand-washed clothes.

I command you to lose all that fats wobbling around your body!

Hahahaha.

Testing around with my favorite tool: my fist.

Aperture priority mode.

F/2.0.

F/8.0.

You can see Karen here.

I got to remember this.

When using the Aperture priority mode, use a smaller Aperture value when you want to have more focus on a single object and get a more blurry background.

Pardon me, I can only remember using my own terms...

But if you want more professional terms, go here.

fatty bom bom

2010-05-08T00:43:00.001+08:00

And then when you came in, I lost my train of thoughts.

Out of focus.

But I like her.

She's such a sweetie, so pretty.

2010-05-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

Please fight till the end.

If there's a will, there's a way.

black and white

2010-05-07T22:30:00.002+08:00

There's always this pinch of sadness whenever I read reviews about LX3, feeling that my camera deserves a better owner.

Still reading up and experimenting with Aperture/Shutter speed settings.

Here are some pictures taken during a "Just Playing Around" photography trip with the sister.

The sun was so strong that we could not even see what we were taking.

But still, Marina Barrage is a nice place for a picnic because the wind's so strong and the kite will definitely fly.

2010-04-27T02:00:00.000+08:00

Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes... all you need is One.

What's up yo

2010-04-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

I loveeee this photo of Freja Beha!

SH was digging through my wardrobe the other day and I suddenly realized that I'VE A LOT OF CLOTHES!

What's up with wearing black black black all day long?!

happy only

2010-04-24T02:39:00.000+08:00

Except for the few days being trapped at home, my life has been a lot livelier than this blog.
Hahaha I'm actually in the midst of finding back the craziest side of me.
Not totally back yet, but I see it coming!

Oh yes, I've been hunting for jobs and trying to pick the one I like the best.
Which also means.. I'm not gonna go to Uni for the time being.
After 17 years of education, I've came to a conclusion that perhaps I need to go through some hardship before I become a hardworking (good) student.
Although the tedious job hunting process made me feel like going back to being a student, I will remain determined and not give up!
I must find something I like.

So... the highlight of the month is my best friend's birthday!

It was super fun to go surprise him with a cake filled with 20 candles that do not really die.

Hahahaha traveling to Pasir Ris was well worth it!

I've been really taking things slowly when it comes to finding an ideal job..

But I've been spending way too fast! I feel so ashamed to even think of the speed that my money is flowing out.

FIND JOB SLOWLY = NO MONEY ROLLING IN.

I must call that company on Monday!

This holiday, I've been meeting up with this girl pretty much...

I like how we can laugh together over the smallest things.. eat $1 ice-cream together, sit down somewhere, not talking and just stare into the space. <3

Oh and before I forget, Date Night is damn funny!

Hahahaha some parts were super exaggerating but I laughed my lungs out when I was watching it.

Sometimes I think it's okay to be a little crazy, be a little exaggerating and do all the 'unglamorous' stuff... Like dancing sillily.

Be a little more carefree and think lesser.

Chase after the dreams and do all the things you like.

Express all your feelings/thoughts and not being afraid that you'll be laughed at.

O.M.G.

Life is so short, we only have 7 days in a week and 24 hours for a day!

I've almost spent an hour on this blog post!

I should stop now and go to sleep because I've to help my Mummy buy cucumbers tomorrow morning!

Life is short, life is super short, life is super duper short... I must live it to the fullest and leave no space for regrets!!

Great days ahead!

Weeeee-u-weeeeeet~

Goodnight!

2010-04-05T13:23:00.002+08:00

越来越不懂我自己

2010-04-02T17:17:00.000+08:00

I feel so proud using my F21 eco-friendly reusable tote bag while helping my mom with grocery shopping today. LOL.

boooooore

2010-04-02T00:41:00.001+08:00

My communication skills are degenerating.

My imagination doesn't run as wild as it does in the past.. and that means I am becoming less creative.

Laughing for no apparent reason used to be my strength, but that isn't happening much lately.

I am becoming such a bore.

Not saying that I was an interesting person.. but you know, a laughing machine entertains better than a piece of wooden block.

The bond inevitably dilutes as the topics lessen.

Communication is such a chore at times.

This led me into thinking about any future relationships that I'm gonna have.

About how hard is it gonna be to try to maintain relationships of any forms.

2010-03-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

Dear friend,
I hope I can help you in some way.
I hope everything's fine.
I hope you know that you're not alone.

LG life's good.

2010-03-21T21:12:00.003+08:00

I think it was after this scary stuck-in-Cockscrew incident that made me have phobia for weird stairs. Which adds to my collection of phobias for bridges and drains.

Weird stairs as in those steep or wooden or with holes ones.

Sigh. Weird phobia, I think.

How can someone as huge as me be afraid of stairs?!

I guess it was a cool experience being stuck up there though.

Initially I was really scared. Like really.

I was really afraid that the rollercoaster would move backwards/frontwards. And then crash into something.. or make us fly out of the rollercoaster..

The thought of death didn't cross my mind though.

Anyway, besides this new phobia, life's been good.

Uni application date is closing soon but I haven't really decided on what to do.

Looking at how things go now, I reckon I wouldn't be continuing my studies for the time being.

Love this photo, love this best friend! :D

Even though I've a new phobia for stairs, I think I'm becoming bolder..

Because I took Spaceshot and Cockscrew twice even after I got stuck on Cockscrew for a good 15mins.

Quite brave leh I feel. Hahaha.

Got a new hairstyle!

I know you know that I said I wanna keep longgg hair, but my previous hairstyle really sucked.

I couldn't stand it any longer.

For me to keep long hair, I need to trim the sides away.

My new hairstyle looks better, yes?

Aiyah from the photos, it looks the same.. But the new hairstyle's more natural lah.

I guess my dream of long hair for my 21st birthday is crashed.. Hahaha.

Maybe I should wear a wig.

DSLR is so fun to play with!

But I'm currently very much in love with my camera!

Except that it doesn't have the pin-hole.. makes it less fun to play around with.

Finally passed HQ the present and got ALDO shoes for HW!

Pretty shoes... Fierce.

So long since I actually shopped for my own stuff..

Not sure why, but I felt extremely happy and confident the day I met my girlfriends.

The feeling of confidence is something which I've not felt for a long time. :)

Sndy and I was supposed to watch Alice in Wonderland 3D but I got the wrong timing and we decided not to catch it anymore since we've to meet the girls in the evening.

People are getting wiser as they grow up and I think I am too (in some sense)..

But I am also getting slower and blur-er.. which is not a good thing.

Sigh.

Wow so dashing, wow so pretty!

Weee-u-weeet!

Love my parents. Hehehe.

I told you I was becoming bolder..

Life is so short.. We should all try all kinds of stuff (except eating rabbits/monkey brain/insects).

Tried parasailing in Sabah.

Not scary at all, but I got giddy after flying for a few minutes. Hahaha.

Love the cows! So cute mooo mooo :D

By looking at them, I know I WILL be a vegetarian for my entire life.

If there's next life, I'll want to be a vegetarian again.

Cute kitten isn't it?!

Being close to the nature reminds me of the wonders of life.

Hanging around with kids make me happy..

They are so pure, happy, innocent and cute. So close to nature.

Just caught "The Boy in Striped Pajamas", nice.

Watching that movie makes me wanna throw my fork into the TV.

I need to learn to hate/dislike lesser and love more.

remember

2010-03-16T08:26:00.001+08:00

Su Xian needs to stop being short-tempered.

this week's

2010-03-15T11:46:00.007+08:00

2!
FOCUS.

rainbow

2010-03-14T22:51:00.003+08:00

After almost one year of owning LX3 and having different friends snapping photographs with it, I was reminded again to snap and look at things from different angles.

Look at how angles change the way things look.

Photography is amazing. It teaches me life, captures some of my most precious memories and reminds me of what I've forgotten.

My camera's amazing, I should give it a name.

Hmmm. Rainbow?

小彩虹?

Hahahahaha what a name.

Aiyah can't think of any now.

I'll name it some other day.

Need to learn and snap and learn and snap and bring out the best of my camera.

dear friend

2010-03-14T17:36:00.000+08:00

Teach me how to recreate the chemistry we once shared.

We're so quiet right now and I don't really know what's happening to you lately.

Yes, I should ask, but where should I start?

Nonetheless, I hope magic happens and all the bad things go away from you.

Just attended WP's 21st. Oh my, we've been friends for 8 years?

He's growing old with a kiddy face. Hahaha.

Right now I am still deciding whether to hold a birthday party for my 21st or not.

Not really used to having family and friends singing a birthday song for me, I'd really get shy and want to hide my face. Hahaha.

Yeah, my birthday's 5 months away.. Seems like it's so far away, and I shouldn't be planning now.

But.. time flies?

It really does.

Because as we grow up, we get busier.

Time flies so fast that one day, without me realising it, I'll have to start attending friends' weddings instead of 21st birthday parties.

1st

2010-03-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

1st target: Smaller face.

2010-03-11T21:14:00.002+08:00

回到那个每天都想要美美的日子

sleepily awake

2010-03-07T01:53:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to my dearest Xiao Wen Zi <3

So now, the insomnia season is here for me.

Everytime I try to sleep, tons of stuffs keep flashing across my mind.

And I'd end up switching on AA and surf aimlessly on the net.

Retarded egg. Hahaha.

Insomnia totally spoils my plan for 5am jogs.

Falling asleep at 3 or 4am and going to jog at 5? What?!

I don't wanna die while jogging halfway.

I'm still young, not yet 21, not yet married, not yet set up my cafe...

But anyway, me is believing lesser and lesser in love (between a guy and a girl).

Me used to think of love as something magical, but now me thinks of it as something terrible.

Me thinks this is no good.

Retarded egg.

Does insomnia has got anything to do with my activity level?

Been exercising quite regularly for the past few days. To the gym and squash court!

The gym day was kind of bad because I was super dizzy after all the hamster-trapped-in-a-cage workout.

I could feel my brain trembling slightly when I was about to go to sleep.

Hmmm, it's.. a weird feeling.. it's as though my brain is experiencing a slight earthquake. :(

Oh yeah, working out in the gym feels like a hamster running in an air-conditioned cage.

Trapped and.. having to stare at the same place while running on the treadmill.

Oh wow oh wow, my eyes are sore.

I hope I can sleep earlier because I'm going for squash again tmr!

2010-03-04T22:24:00.003+08:00

Adidas Sundown Marathon 2010, anyone?

edit/
=.= all categories are full?!?!?!
Marathon no moreeeeee.

what a wordy post.

2010-03-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

When you have no money, there is nothing much you can do except going for a few jogs.
When you have no money, you cannot even go to Starbucks and chill.
You can only chill at the shopping malls without shopping.

Oh maybe I could make a few trips to down to Botanic Gardens, Marina Barrage or Vivocity with LX3.
I miss that Vivocity night scenery. It has been awhile since I went there.
Idling around outside is better than being at home.
When my mom sees that I don't have projects to work on and exams to mug for, she thinks it becomes my responsibility to do some housework.
I admit I haven't been helping out. But I don't like it when she doesn't ask for help nicely.
And I don't see why my room is messy.

Bored to the max. Plans for the past two days went down to the drain.
And my best friend's birthday is coming, yet nothing concrete is up yet.

Feel like canceling the Kota Kinabalu trip so that I can start work earlier and get some money rolling in.
I hate being broke.

I hate being indecisive.
People are making choices for Uni and I am still here, one moment wanting to pursue my degree, one moment wanting to stop studying and start working.

There is nothing I can do with the deflated volleyball at home.
I miss that volleyball touch, but I need money to get a new Mikasa volleyball too.
Spiking on a Mikasa sounds and feels better than Molten.
After many years of inactivity, I really miss being a sportsperson.
Someone so much more healthy, motivated, driven... and competitive.

What a wordy post.

hang in there

2010-02-24T02:52:00.000+08:00

Getting very sick of staying up late for exams.
There's limited memory space in my brain and the past two papers have already taken up most of it.

Come on come on!
Two days to freedom!
The thought it makes me shiver in excitement!
Gogogogo!

Google rules.

2010-02-21T03:30:00.003+08:00

responsibility of a student

2010-02-20T23:03:00.001+08:00

Dreams, dreams, plans, plans, come again another day!
Not when I am studying!

It's the last lap now!
Su Xian, focus! Don't lose the momentum again!

Everybody, let's study hard!

edit (01:27)
Omg from dinner till now!
I've been side-tracking and planning some stuffs totally unrelated to exams!
SUXIAN STOP IT! GO AND STUDY AT LEAST 3 LECTURES BEFORE YOU SLEEP!

Don't play with the electricity.

2010-02-18T21:15:00.002+08:00

I suspect there is something wrong with the electricity at home.
Two days ago, the electricity set the radio on fire and burnt it.
Furthermore, the radio is relatively new and we hardly use it!

When I tried to study today, I couldn't switch on my room's light.
Everything was fixed when I went to adjust the main electricity circuit box (?).
Luckily I am not that ignorant. Hahaha.
If not I'd be left alone in the dark, so poor thing!

I just found out that this morning, the light bulb in the kitchen's toilet was burnt.
When I decided to go bathing and switched on the light, the entire house blackout because of a "jumped switch".
My parents always say “跳电”, so "jumped switch" is a direct translation.

I suspect there is something wrong going on in the house...
And the main culprit is the bathroom's light switch.
In the past, I used to get minor electrical shocks from it whenever I try to switch it on..
Hmmmm.

I got myself prepared for any case of electrocution at home:

"In treating electric shock - stimulate the heart action by alternate hot and cold applications over the heart. Give a hot application for a minute or two, then a vigorous or cold mitten friction to the entire chest. The head must be lowered, the clothing should also be loosened, and the extremities warmed either by hot applications or by vigorous frictions. There is often unconsciousness which results from electrocution, because of the shock to the nervous system, but treatment should still be administered speedily to save the victim's life."

Source

Mad

2010-02-18T14:26:00.000+08:00

Be a mad man and learn to laugh everything off!

Okay, start studying hard now :D

Let's enjoy our last examination in NYP!

re_cycled

2010-02-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

Hi, Happy Chinese New Year to You!

2010-02-18T01:05:00.001+08:00

music

2010-02-16T02:34:00.001+08:00

Urgh, next time I'll be richer than I am now and will definitely not miss Muse's gig again!
Now YouTube is evil because the videos of Muse in Sg are making me slap myself inside out outside in.
Hahaha okay I am not slapping myself actually, but I really wish I was there!

happier

2010-02-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

3 years of Poly life just ended!

I guess it's all the projects, exams and busy schedules that are blinding us and making us not realise that time is passing.

Finally, it's the end of all the projects but I guess I'd miss Marketing.

Never regretted taking marketing.

Even though I always complain that NYP was a wrong choice, at the end of the day, I'm sure it's not 100% bad.

Cos I've gotten to know Marketing and gotten to know some great friends.

On CNY eve, I was reminding myself not to weigh how much to give someone by how much the other person is giving me.

Giving is such a joy, I shouldn't waste time weighing.

2010-02-08T23:44:00.001+08:00

Life is getting better because:
1. Projects are all down!!!!!
2. Had a great day with Hui Wen!!!

love her to the max!

3. Got clothes for CNY!!!
4. MY GIRLS ARE FINALLY MEETING ME!!!!!!

I am happy :)

detox!

2010-02-05T16:47:00.000+08:00

I am going on a soup detox diet from 10/02 to 12/02, because I feel a lot of toxin inside my body.
I'd make sure I do a daily report on the blog, and feel free to smack me if I didn't carry out my detox plan!
5am jogs are gonna start next Tuesday too!

2010-02-03T23:42:00.008+08:00

Because I went to get the cbox code, I saw those tags in the past, and realised I was a really happy girl.
Someone who is far from being emo, someone who bounces back quickly after a sad moment, someone who believes and loves, someone who is so full of energy and positivity.

I've really changed a lot over the past two years.

"October 16, 2007-
Anyway, went Vivo meet Vicki today and took the same train as Shahirah Price(I love her surname). Guess what? Shahirah told me that the first time she saw me, she thought my mole was a piercing! Hahahaha! I think piercing looks better than moles, so I have a pretty mole on my nose! (Mole on my nose, it rhymths) I'm beginning to love my mole!
(LW has sexy moles. HAHAHA)

YES! Love everything about yourself! Look at them in a positive way :)
They will look nice if you love them. Thats what I believe!
If you don't like what you have, then try to change them, or try to improve them!
Love yourself!
SHOUT: I LOVE ME! :D

Oh ya, Ive a few items to get from mango! Waiting for my next pay!
Woahooo and then shopppppping! :D
Shiokness :) "

If you knew me well enough, you'd be able to see the difference in me now.

This paragraph pretty much sums up which kind of Su Xian I was..
I used to love interacting with people.
But now, I just shun.

I used to love myself very much and I used to love shopping and I used to be very positive.

Even just by reading my old entries made me feel so full of energy and made me smile..

That girl will be back soon, and the old entries will be my driving force.

I love that Su Xian, don't you?

I can feel the energy running in me now! :D

2010-02-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

No sleep also must come up with a good IMC website!
I hope my ideas flow in quicker!!!

p.s: my blog is like a twitter account now! haha but i like the fact that it is locked. i feel much freer with my words now! only like 4 persons have access to this blog!

2010-02-01T00:46:00.002+08:00

I feel like making cards for a few friends now :)

2010-01-31T23:08:00.000+08:00

My mom is right, part of the reason why I couldn't get well is because I keep on cooping myself up at home.
In the past, it was always hard for me to catch the tv programs, even the 10pm shows.
And now, there isn't even a slightest problem for me to catch all the shows, 7pm, 9pm and 10pm.
Yes, I love watching tv with my parents.
But deep inside me, I want to be out on the streets too, having fun with friends, shopping and dining out.
Nowadays it is so hard to just look for someone to hang out with.
I've been alone for too long and I just need one single soul to be at Starbucks with me, chilling out and do people watching.
Very often, before I head out of the house, I spend a lot of time sitting on my bed, thinking of the people I can ask to go out with, thinking of where to go alone... and end up not having an answer.
Because I don't know who are the ones I can ask.
Because I dread being alone outside.
Those few people that I can ask are usually busy, working, or overseas.
I've really been alone, cooped inside my room, for too long.
Sometimes I'd choose to just use AA in the living room so that I won't have to breathe the same air.
There is a need for balance in life. You can't be doing the same thing over and over again.

I need to stop feeling sad for not having a healthy body.
Need to concentrate on getting well and staying healthy.
Because everytime I feel sad about my health, my mom feels guilty for not being healthy when she had me.

After my bones stop hurting, I need to get back on track and start an active lifestyle again.

2010-01-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

I think my fever is coming back.
It must be IB test la. It is a curse. Study IB get fever.
Not like I studied hard though.

2010-01-29T14:33:00.000+08:00

我觉得我有心病
I don't know why, I don't know why, I am very moody now.
Can someone just talk to me now?
Am I sick or what? Why do I feel this way?
Maybe the both of you are the cause of this.
I shouldn't bother about you anymore?
Because I care and thats why the both of you are making my life miserable.
How can you be so selfish?
How can you say I didn't care?
How can you say I treated you like a fool?
When all of these are not true.
What best friends?
When things are good, I am the best.
But when we fight, you want to kick me out of your life.
I am not going to totally blame myself anymore.
Because at the very beginning, all of us were wrong.
I am not the only wrong one.
I've already let go of my pride and tried to talk to the both of you so many times, but there wasn't any response at all.
You said I treated you as a fool.
And then now? You treat me more like a fool.
I am tired, I don't like the life I am leading now. I don't feel like going for IB test.
I don't know what I want to do.

2010-01-29T01:48:00.001+08:00

OMG RUNNING A CAFE IN MY MIND AGAIN.

2010-01-28T21:08:00.001+08:00

I miss my cute little babies.

But it's good that they are in the hands of another owner, because I'd hate to see them die.

2010-01-27T17:08:00.002+08:00

Hey, I am tired.

Can someone give me a solution?

I am tired of everything.

Tired of life.

2010-01-23T00:12:00.001+08:00

Being sick does not make me feel good at all!

It has been 3 days already but I still get dizzy spells and the fever keeps on coming back.

The bland taste in my mouth isn't making me feel good either.

How I wish I can vomit all the discomfort out of my body :(

But I'm blessed because my mom has been by my side for the past few days taking care of me.

And my dad pretending to be a chinese physician feeling my pulse...

Yes, I've not grown up, I'd cry if I'm sick and alone at home, I'm still my parents' little girl, I want them to always be by my side.

Oh man, I'm hungry now and I feel like having sushi!

Home-made ones!

And steamboat :(

I want veggies and soup :(

No taste in my mouth now :(

suzanne

2010-01-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

1. I'm pretty sure that I've made myself clear that I am Joreen, not Doreen. Why did Comfort cab record my name as Doreen?! Tough times introducing myself. Say I'm "Su Xian", people call me Suzanne or Susan. Say "Joreen", people call me Doreen or Jolin.
2. I feel really weird when people spell my name as Shu Xian.
3. Nice people makes me happy!
4. Point 3 made me realize that it's been too long ago since I was nice. I am a baddie nowadays, sigh. Gone were the days going around spreading love.
5. Need to change my attitude and temper!
6. 6 more weeks to end of poly life!!!
7. I don't know what lies ahead for me, but I want to study/work for a purpose.
8. I love kids.
9. I love my family. Sometimes I've a very strong urge to hug my mom tightly but I don't know how to go about doing that.
10. I love cooking. But I hate washing.

2010-01-18T00:12:00.001+08:00

OMG HELPPP!
Ideas for my future cafe have been running through my mind crazily for the past few days whenever I try to sleep!
Things like the menu, marketing ideas, cafe positioning, location, training and managing staff, etc...
And I've been thinking of how to get the feel of running a cafe before I really start doing one myself!
Like getting a part time job in a cafe after graduation, cooking up a few dishes and inviting my friends over to test the food, try catering or setting up a small stall first, doing market research and getting the perspectives of non-vegetarians towards vegetarian food, etc...

ALL THESE HAVE BEEN RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND INTENSIVELY/VIGOROUSLY/CRAZILY!

Does it mean that my cafe will come alive?
Seriously, I am not sure. Not at all!

At the very beginning, the dream of setting up my own cafe came about because I think there is a lack of variety for vegetarian food in Singapore!
(Okay, I shall not elaborate more because I want to keep my ideas to myself. I don't want to start writing and end up posting the whole chunk of ideas going on in my mind. Selfish only, but bleahhh!)

And then the dream grew stronger because I hope to influence non-vegetarians about the goodness of vegetarian food!
Vegetarian food can be fun and yumyumyummmy!

And then I started to come up with a few reasons why my cafe is gonna be a success... and the problems that I'll meet (and how am I gonna handle them)
and...
OHMYGOODNESS I REALLY CANNOT SLEEP BECAUSE I AM RUNNING A CAFE IN MY MIND NOW.

we are all weird, but that's what makes us unique

2010-01-13T15:44:00.005+08:00

+ Sometimes I feel like being somewhere alone where nobody knows me, but when that happens, I start to urge for accompany and feel all lonely again.
+ People are starting to misunderstand the things I say and sometimes I do not understand the things I say and I am becoming lazy to explain.
+ I need to find myself again.
+ A lot of times I feel like an ugly duckling when I stand beside someone dolled up

and I wish someday I can say "Yes, me! I am!" to myself confidently everyday. It has been sometime, too long. I miss those beautiful dresses and cute skirts. What's the problem with me?!!

+ I am weird, I am always on the extremes. I am a perfectionist, a weird one. I like to start plans on Mondays, and when things screw up halfway, I continue screwing up, and wait for the next Monday to start all over again. I am weird. I can only start on Mondays. That's why I can never get things done on time. I don't know if you get what I mean but this is a bad habit, I need to change.

+ I don't know how long I've been wearing my contact lens. They are starting to hurt. Maybe it's time to dispose them.

+ This blog is becoming too open to be private. I can't seem to share my thoughts nowadays. Perhaps it's because most of them are sad, and I don't really like sharing sad stuffs on my blog because juliesloveletter is supposed to be a happy place.

+ I need to really start being that happy and crazy girl again!!! Now, concentrate on the happy things in life and stop thinking about everything sad!

+ Come on, I want to go hahahaha-ing!

+ Thank you! I feel better now! I really do! (I have the ability to cheer myself up. Omg after typing this sentence out, I felt some enlightenment..)

2010-01-10T00:13:00.004+08:00

Anger came along after guilt, hurt and disappointment,
...and then time's gonna evolve everything into nothingness.

2010-01-08T19:44:00.000+08:00

I am really lost.

changes

2010-01-08T14:44:00.001+08:00

It is amazing how Enoki mushroom sweetens Bitter gourd soup.
I am beginning to love 老人菜 like Bitter gourd, Ladyfinger and Brinjal.
This most probably has got to do with my mom, the great cook, who has changed my opinion towards these 老人菜.

It can be really amusing to notice the changes going on around me as I grow up.
Realizing and accepting that change is the only constant has lightened the way I hang on too tightly onto certain things.

...Anyway, Broccoli is still the best veggie ever. :)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2010-01-06T01:05:00.001+08:00

SU XIAN says: (AM 12:07:57)
will you still be my friend if i become fat like a gorilla?
SU XIAN says: (AM 12:07:58)
HAHHAHA
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:08:01)
HAHA
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:08:03)
of cuz la.
SU XIAN says: (AM 12:08:23)
will you still be my friend if i become skinny like a bamboo?
SU XIAN says: (AM 12:08:24)
hahahahah
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:08:28)
of cuz
SU XIAN says: (AM 12:08:45)
will you still be my friend if i become very materialistic?
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:09:01)
hmmm..yes
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:09:05)
but not as close?
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:09:09)
OOI
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:09:13)
okay ler la..
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:09:17)
always be frens
Don't stop, keep it going like a waterfall. says: (AM 12:09:22)
wun stop de.

2009-12-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

Now I have an idea how to make use of the "extra" 2010 organizer that I have :D

home.

2009-12-28T12:55:00.001+08:00

The worst thing about being back from camp is to receive 13 project related emails.
When there's nothing left to burn, you have to set the projects on fire!
Set it on fire, set it on fire!

What's next? Receiving messages from friends asking me to organize outings.
I'm beginning to dislike being pushed to organize outings.
Don't ever ever ever ask me to organize outings when you refuse to reply my messages.

Alright, chill, I need to learn how to control my anger.

Life will be sweeter only if you've learnt how to let go.
The moment I reached home, I saw a piece of note on my table...

How sweet can that be?

I smiled, I am touched.

It was from my brother's girlfriend..

Thank you :)

Being in camp for the past three days have been the best days of 2009.
It has been a long time since I felt such peace.
With my mind totally away from the world and projects, feeling peaceful, happy and protected like a... butterfly?

..I'm glad that I went.
That place is where love is at.

2009-12-21T02:26:00.002+08:00

Oh how I miss those times playing volleyball getting soaked in sweat

Annoying Orange!

2009-12-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

I really love these videos, they make me laugh!
I've watched it over and over again but I'm still laughing each time I watch them!
Hahahaha don't tell me if you find them lame, let me know only if you like them too!
Hey Apple Hey Apple Hey Apple!

Anyway I've decided to name my Macbook AA!

2009-12-19T11:56:00.000+08:00

Fight for what you want.

blackcurrant!

2009-12-18T14:37:00.000+08:00

The number of sachets I've to open up to mix and drink.

A total of 13!

Madness or what, by the time I finish opening all, I still need to source for courage to gulp down that medicine.

What seems like high technology (sealed in sachets, can just mix with hot water and drink; unlike those only traditional pots can brew kind of herbs) actually tastes like shit.

I thought technology made chinese medicine taste less bitter.

What's worse is that for each mouthful of medicine I swallow, I think of rabbits.

My mom called and clarified with the physician to make sure that it's nothing made out of rabbits.

Yes, the physician said it's all suitable for vegetarians, but I'm still paranoid.

Is it really not made out of rabbits?

I hope so.

Very disgusting to drink rabbits leh :(

Anyway, I'm glad to have Eclipse Blackcurrant mints to ease all the bitterness!

Yes, Blackcurrant mints! :D

2009-12-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

I miss being a kid.

just for ha ha

2009-12-10T16:37:00.003+08:00

write my brain out

2009-12-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

How I wish I had the skills to better express myself and my ideas through words.
And to translate pictures in my brain into words with the perfect descriptions.
Just so that you can read what I am thinking.